My body knows exactly what it needs to do. My body knows exactly what it needs to do. I just need to let go and surrender.

When I was growing up, birth was depicted as being a very dramatic and painful medical experience. No one ever talked about it willingly and the only real insight I had was from the television. That vision of a woman screaming in pain, threatening to kill her partner for getting her pregnant in the first place. These images where tucked away in my unconscious mind along with all the other insights I received when I was a child.

When I was a teenager the idea of birth terrified me, those memories imprinted so well. How we think, how we respond to situations really goes back to our childhood. Sometimes we do not even understand why we react the way we do, why certain sounds or situations trigger us.

All of this comes from our experiences as a child, the world we are born into, that is the world we react too. How we are raised, what we are feed, these are the building blocks of who we are. Up until the age of 8 everything is taken in by the unconscious mind, there is no filter, no critical thinking that may reject certain ideas or experiences. I guess that is why they say that young children are like sponges. They soak everything up ,the good and the bad. So that later on, you react to certain situations without thinking.

So many people are fearful of birth, having heard so many negative birth stories. Yet women's bodies were designed to birth their young. Of course our bodies are also changing a lot, no thanks to all the crap that some put in their bodies, so unfortunately for some birth may be a difficult experience.

But just imagine if we viewed birth differently, if children were to hear a lot more positive birth experiences. If the way it is so wrongly depicted in the media was changed. Imagine now, how the unconscious mind sees birth and the effect it has when women are deciding where and how to give birth. Instead of the initial fear response , we have one that is more confident and comfortable with the idea that their bodies know what to do and if not then assistance is available. Just imagine.

When I decided I wanted to have a home birth, there was at first an uneasy feeling within me, I remember having dreams where I was screaming in pain and so fearful for the safety of my unborn baby. So many what if's, would pop into my head. I really felt like I had to unschool myself from this fear, that was imprinted in my mind, from these thoughts that would always try to unnerve me. This fear that was engrained in me. Yet I was so determined, I spend hours talking to myself, reprogramming my mind and pushing out this deeply engrained thoughts of what birth was.

And when the time came, it was to my unconscious primitive mind that I really needed to connect with again, in order to birth my baby. Because when we are born, we are born knowing, that our bodies know what to do. We have no fear, we trust our bodies, we are so much more connected to the whole. We see and we do. The primitive part of the brain controls the processes that occur automatically in our bodies such as breathing, digestion, blinking your eye, heartbeat. Birth is something that can happen automatically, when we actually allow our bodies to do so without interference. But their are so many factors at play today that prevent this from happening.